artsytravellerph || March 23, 2025 || 8:28PM ||
Fort St. John, British Columbia
Just like I used to believe that Romeo will come and save me in this small town. My dear, I’ve done that path. It drained me out. Took me a lot to get back on my feet once again. I thought giving was the only way. I thought that the only way to sharpen my skills is to give it away, but no. You are draining yourself that way, you should learn what serves you and things that you need to let go.
I could even describe it in my own words as ‘work hopping’. If there is such a word. Haha. For me, I thought the new job, or the new environment would serve me. I said maybe, let’s do it once again. Like find a new job and see if I could stick out to it. No matter how ideal I associate myself skills I could be learning to that specific job, I ended up not in a crossroads but rather than a corner of two walls. If you know what I mean.
Then days, feel like so slow. I know that I am alive but I lost the sense of living. It’s empty and it’s suffocating. Don’t wait for the day that you couldn’t remember all the food you crave every now and then. Don’t set aside what made you feel alive just because it wasn’t practical financially.
Delaying that dream is like shaking up at soda until it will burst since it can’t contain the pressure already. And before you know it, you’ll hit the corner wall that I am telling you about. Until you don’t have any choice to confront yourself.
God planted that dream in your heart and unless you do something about it, that uneasy feeling will never go away. Just because it’s out of reach right now doesn’t mean it is not possible.
“You were created by God to reach your highest potential. Don’t let fear or doubt stop you from stepping into the future He has planned for you.”
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But have you heard a beautiful word that is most often understood as being selfish? Starts with ‘B’ and ends with ‘S’
Boundaries. You need yourself too.
It’s healthy.
Don’t wait for the perfect timing. The best bet you can do is work on what you have. Choose yourself this time before you end up losing yourself.
Take care! And let’s weave our dreams!
– Micah
